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The Time I Bought An Air Conditioner

Note From Ryan: This absolutely TRUE story contains a good deal of profanity, a couple of crazy people, drug references, and exhibitionist geriatric ladies. In other words, it's not for the kids. I wrote it the evening the events occurred, back in July of 2004. Still one of the strangest evenings I've had...

THE TIME I BOUGHT AN AIR CONDITIONER

     As I glanced up from my magazine, I noticed that the tree outside my apartment was beginning to appear gray and indistinguishable from the sky around it.  This was a telltale sign that darkness would fall upon the city sooner than later.  If wanted to take a walk, I had to leave soon.  The daily walks had developed very naturally, in the sly manner that most forms of exercise seemed to creep into my life.  When Tori had visited me in the new apartment, we were both eager to get out and explore the new neighborhood, as well as to get a bit of fresh air.  We also figured that a little bit of movement and exercise, although initially feared by us both, would probably not be detrimental to our health in the long run, either.  As we discovered all the interesting alleyways and storefronts that the neighborhood had to offer, something must have appealed to my inner senses, because I now still enjoyed the walks very much, even though Tori had gone back home.

     Without delaying the nearly inevitable walk any longer, I finally rose from the futon and put on my shoes.  I grabbed my keys and locked the door behind me.  As I walked down the outside stairs leading out of my apartment complex, I heard the sound of a woman shouting.  The sound grew louder as I walked further, but I was unable to make out what she was saying.  When I rounded the corner I saw that the source of the yelling was a neighbor that I had only talked to once before briefly.  Judging by her physical features, she was probably at least in her 60s.  Her gray hair was streaked black in some places, and in others, an indeterminate, reddish color seemed to stand out.  The red, however, seemed to be a result not of nature, but of an ill-advised encounter with a packet of hair dye.  She wore large eyeglasses, a loose-fitting gray sweatshirt, and tight black jeans.  She was smiling as she was yelling, and she smiled I walked by, but the lines on her face spoke of a hidden sadness and her generally worn-out appearance hinted at stories of drug use and other various youthful--or possibly adult--indiscretions.  Her name, as I was about to find out, was Celeste.

     The only other time that I had talked to Celeste, I had felt uncomfortable around her.  I’ll admit that I am somewhat ill at ease in many social situations, but when I talked to her she just seemed, well, weird.  Not that the weirdness I perceived was necessarily a bad thing; after all, when living in Boulder, if you exclude the freaks and weirdoes, you’ll find that your circle of friends is left with a very short diameter.  In any case, in the previous encounter Celeste had offered me a green dresser.  She explained that since they were moving out soon, she didn’t want to just throw the dresser away.  I told her I’d think about it and get back to her.  About an hour later that day, my brother Paul, who was visiting me, went down to my car to get something, and returned with some sad news.  Apparently Celeste explained—or as he said, “rambled”—to him that someone had “up and stole” the dresser, and that she was therefore sorry that I could no longer have it.

     With this previous Celeste experience under my belt, I at least knew that she talked loudly, and that she talked a lot, so I wasn’t too surprised to see her yelling to the shirtless young men standing on the balcony across the alley.  I missed the point of their discussion, but I detected no animosity from either side, so I kept on walking, minding my own business.  I heard one of the guys say to Celeste, “Hey, weren’t you the one that came over here last weekend with that pitcher of beer?!” to which Celeste replied by hooting loudly.  Not wanting to interrupt this strange neighborhood bonding session, and wanting even less to get involved in it, I hurried on past Celeste and started walking up the alley that led to the park where I intended to walk.  I was almost certain that I was in the clear when all of a sudden I heard Celeste shout in my general direction: “And how are you doing, pumpkin?!”  I turned around to look at her, but before I could speak she smiled at me and said, “I mean ‘pumpkin’ as a term of endearment, of course.”

     “Oh, I’m fine,” I said smiling.  I resigned my antisocial spirit and started walking toward her, still slightly fearing her use of the word “pumpkin,” and wondering where the conversation was possibly headed.  “How are you?”

     “Oh shit, I’m doing good. Hey, do you know these guys, they’re our neighbors, they’re pretty nice,” she said quickly, gesturing to the balcony where the young men stood barbequing.

     “Uh, no, I don’t think I know them.”

     “Well shit, they got this one dog—have you seen it?—it’s a bull mastiff and it belongs to this girl in our building and it’s just fucking huge.”

     “Well, uh, no, I don’t think I’ve seen it.  You say it belongs to…“

     But before I could finish my thought, a little red hatchback drove up the alley and parked near us, and from the car emerged a young woman, a yellow lab and, as if on cue, a fucking huge bull mastiff.  The arrival of all three apparently excited Celeste, and she began to holler and shout again.  She didn’t shout out of annoyance or fear of the dogs, like one might expect, but rather like a farmer might shout if he was trying to perform a secret call to drive his dogs insane and make them run around, which is exactly what the dogs did.  They ran back and forth between their owner and Celeste, who continually tried to get them riled up.  Being a fan of dogs myself, I rather enjoyed the scene, and I smiled as I watched the two energetic canines bound about.  In the midst of all the commotion, Celeste began to talk to me again.

     “Hey, do you want an air conditioner?”

     “An air conditioner? Hmm, I don’t know. What do you mean?” I asked.

     “You know, an air conditioner. That air conditioner, sitting in the window over there,” she said, pointing to an apartment at the end of the building. “I’d sell it to you for 150 bucks, but you know, I just don’t want to have to deal with the fucking thing since I’m moving up to the mountains. You know, haul that piece of shit everywhere—I don’t need that fucking hassle.”

     “Hmm,” I said, “I had actually been considering buying an air conditioner earlier in the summer, but now that it’s cooler, I wasn’t so sure anymore.”

     “Well, you know, I just need the cash, that’s all, I just don’t have any money, and I don’t know what the hell we’ll do with it.”

     “You know, could I think about it a bit and get back to you, you know, maybe take a look at it later if I decide I’m interested,” I said, determined to not be distracted from my intended walk.  I had also decided earlier in the weak that my monetary situation was a bit worrisome, and that I should avoid possible impulse buys at all costs.  When I made that rule, I had had CDs in mind, but I figured the anti-impulse clause could extend to air conditioners as well.

     “Shit, you can come inside and look at it now. Come on in and check it out,” Celeste said, already walking toward the apartments.

     I tried to stammer a response that would indicate my desire to keep on walking, but nothing coherent came out of my mouth, and Celeste waved again for me to follow her.  At this point, I probably should have just trusted my instincts, which would have told me to move on and stay away from this situation that could quickly become uncomfortable.  However, I had coincidently sold an old computer earlier in the day and had gotten more money than I had expected, and perhaps that earlier financial victory was clouding my decision-making process.  Additionally, since I had yet to go on my walk, I imagine that my brain was lacking in crucial fresh air that was needed to make important decisions, and I heard myself say, “Sure, I’ll come in and check it out.”

   Even before the two of us entered her apartment, I was hit with the unmistakably strong smell of stale cigarette smoke, and I realized that there was a perimeter of approximately five feet around her apartment that reeked the same way.  As I followed Celeste through the front door, I walked down a short hallway toward a lit bedroom.  In the room, a large, shirtless man was sitting on the bed in front of the window and watching TV.  As he looked at me and opened his mouth, presumably to greet me, Celeste’s jovial demeanor changed instantly.

     “Hey get the fuck out of the way, this guy here…” she began to yell at the man, but she paused and looked at me.  “What’s your name?”

     “Ryan.”

     She pointed at the man, “Ryan, this is Big Mike. Mike, get the FUCK out of the way so that Ryan can look at the air conditioner.”

     I had seen Big Mike before, since he sat out on his porch at all hours of the day in a tattered armchair smoking cigarettes.  Mike looked slightly younger than Celeste, and he seemed a bit more put together in general.  But then again, that was all relative.  Big Mike had always been pretty nice to me and would greet me when I walked by and he was out smoking; in fact, he had given me a small houseplant about two weeks earlier when I was parking my car. I walked towards him, as well as toward the air conditioner in the window behind him, and he stood up, moving backwards a bit so that I could get closer to the machine in the window.

     “It’s a pretty good unit,” Mike began, as he started pushing some of the buttons. “It’s got about 11000 BTUs, which will cool a whole room really well.”

     “FUCK,” Celeste impatiently interrupted again, “Let him see the damn thing.”

     “I’m showing him,” Mike calmly but insistently replied.  As Mike attempted to demonstrate the various features of this particular Panasonic air conditioner, Celeste interjected with comments or questions directed at me.  It was a very rapid-fire conversation on all sides, and I instantly forgot much of what was said, but I remember that she perked up when I said that I was from Fort Collins. 

   “Shit, so you’re from Colorado!”  She said.  I asked her where she was from and she proudly replied, “Denver born, Ward raised.”  That comment instantly gave me a clue as to how she had gotten to her current state.  Although Ward was only a little ways up the canyon from Boulder, it might as well be on another planet, if the behavior of its residents indicated anything.  I tried to put aside any prejudices I might have had against mountain freaks and continued the conversation, and Mike continued to demonstrate the functions of the air conditioner.  Celeste continued to interrupt the demonstration.  At one point she randomly interjected a question that I wasn’t sure how to answer: “Do you smoke pot?”  Thinking that she was offering me some, I replied, “Uh, no thanks, I’m OK.”  She didn’t seem too disappointed, though, because she then partially lifted up her shirt, revealing a large tattoo of a marijuana leaf on her flabby belly.  Her eyes bulged and she laughed with joy as she grabbed and shook her belly, commenting, “This thing is probably older than you, I got it a long time ago!”  The slightly awkward conversation continued for a few more minutes, but I began to feel more comfortable.  Although Big Mike and especially Celeste were surely insane, they seemed harmless.  After a few minutes, though, I felt a desire to leave the stale-smelling room, so I said I’d think about the air conditioner and get back to them.  Celeste became sad all of a sudden and said, “Hey, we just need a bit of cash, like I said. I can even go to 75 if you want. We just gotta get rid of it.”

   “Well,” I said, “I’m not even sure if it’ll fit in my window.  My apartment has a different floor plan than yours.”    

   “Well shit, that’s no problem,” she said as she hurriedly opened a cupboard and produced a tape measure. “Measure it and then go up to your place and see if it’ll fit.”  I took the tape measure and resigned myself to the idea that my walk might be postponed until further notice.  Big Mike and I determined that the unit was 22 inches wide, and I then left to go up to my apartment to measure the space in my open window.  When I tried to do that, however, I discovered my window was very close to 22 inches wide, but due to the curve of the tape measure, I was unsure how close to 22 it was.  Figuring, though, that the windows in the building must be identical, I went downstairs and told Big Mike and Celeste that it would probably fit, although I couldn’t be certain.

   “So how about just 100 bucks for it, then,” said Celeste. “It’s a good unit and you’ll be praising us when it gets really hot again next summer.” 

   I had thought about what to do while I had measured the window in my apartment, and I had surprisingly come to the conclusion that an air conditioner might not be such a bad investment, after all.  Plus, the relatively high-tech unit was in really good shape.  “Sure, I guess I’ll take it,” I heard myself say. “But I don’t have the money with me now.  I was going to go on a walk, so I can stop at my ATM when I’m out there and come by later tonight.”

   “Shit, I can go with you—there’s an ATM just across Broadway,” Celeste said.  I tried to explain to her that I didn’t want to pay the fee at that ATM and besides, I really wanted to get out and get some fresh air.  I was surprised that she still seemed undeterred in her desire to accompany me to the ATM while I got my money, as if I were going to do something shady if she didn’t come with me.  I tried to assure her, though, that I’d only be gone about an hour and that I’d come directly back to their apartment once I got the money.

   “But you’ll still take it, right?” she said, somewhat nervously.  “I mean, I could go down to 75, but man, we bought it for 450 two years ago.”

   “No, it’s OK, I can pay 100,” I said.  “I just don’t have that kind of money on me now.  I’m not going to rip you off or anything, and I’ll pay 100, but I need to get it first.”

   “So it’s sold American?” she said.

   “Huh?” I asked.

   “100 sold American,” she replied.  I wasn’t sure exactly what she meant, but I realized that she was still nervous about the sale, so I told her that yes, I’d take the air conditioner.

   “Aw Mike,” she said, “Isn’t Ryan a nice guy?”  But before Mike could reply she kept on talking.  “Do you believe in Jesus Christ?”

   I usually have trouble talking about my beliefs, and I didn’t feel like this apartment was the place to regale a pair of strangers with stories of my personal faith journey, so I simply said, “Yes.”  Right answer.

   “Oh thank God!” Celeste said. “You are a good kid,” she said, patting me on the shoulder.  She led me outside and before I left she repeated again that they really needed to sell that air conditioner.  She also gestured towards her apartment and told that when I got back, I was not to give the money to “those fuckers in there.”  I assured her once again that I’d take the unit and give the money right to her.  With a tenderness that surprised me, she then smiled and gently touched my left cheek with her hand, repeating again that I was a nice kid. 

   As I walked downtown towards the bank, I felt my mood begin to elevate quickly.  It was a mild night, and the cool air provided a bit of relief from the heat that had oppressed my small apartment earlier in the day.  Although I was still unsure how prudent it was for me to actually buy a used air conditioner that I could honestly do without, I was still a bit excited.  At the very least, I figured, I’d have an interesting story to tell.  I hurried to the bank and then I made my way back to the apartment where Celeste and Big Mike were waiting for me.  After happily greeting me at the door, Celeste went into the bedroom and yelled at Big Mike, “Get UP you shithead, Ryan’s here to take the air conditioner.”

   As the three of us began to maneuver the unit out of the window, a short man that I’d not seen before peeked his head into the bedroom door, and Celeste began to yell at him. “Get the FUCK out of here,” she said, chasing after him into what I assumed was the living room.  “You want me to beat your ass, is that it?”  Then, from an adjoining bathroom that I’d not noticed earlier, I could hear a toilet flush.  Another new man walked out and smiled at me.  “That’s Bernard,” said Celeste.  He and I shook hands. 

   “Nice to meet you,” Bernard said with a slightly teutonic accent.  He then moved closer to the window and helped Mike and I further remove the air conditioner.  Celeste began to admonish Mike loudly, though, yelling at him that his back was fucked up and that he should get the fuck out of the way.  She brushed him aside and seemed to try to lift the unit by herself, and then Mike began to tell her to take it easy.  Finally, we devised a carrying system wherein Bernard and I would carry the beast of a machine, and Celeste would clear the way and prop open the doors for us.  We weaved our way out of Celeste and Mike’s apartment and heaved our way up the staircase to mine.  We placed the air conditioner on my floor.  Celeste pulled a lint-covered post-it note out of her pocket and announced that she was going to write a receipt for me.  Bernhard seemed eager to go back downstairs and continue smoking cigarettes, so he shook my hand again and slipped away, leaving Celeste and I alone in my apartment.

   As she began to write the letters “I.O.U.” on the sticky note, I told her that I had the money right now, and handed it to her.  She seemed slightly surprised, but she happily took the bills from my hand.  She still sat at the dinner table, though, and continued to ask me questions.  “You’re a nice guy, and you deserve a good girl,” she said. “Do you have a good girl?”

   Surprised at the question, but somewhat proud of my coming answer, I replied that I didn’t have a girlfriend right now, but that I was diligently trying to win the heart of a girl.  I told her that the one unfortunate thing was that the girl in question lived in Florida, but at least I’d be visiting her in a few days.

   “Well you get her and bring her ass back here!” she happily replied.  As I walked to the kitchen to get a glass of water, I told her I’d certainly try to do just that.  Then, out of the blue, she asked, “You wanna do a line?”  I looked at her and in front of her on the table sat a little origami-sized piece of paper with white powder inside.  “Aha!” I thought: I now had yet another insight into the peculiar behavior of my newfound friend.  I was taken aback by her offer, but after the other random inquiries of the evening, I was a bit more prepared to answer this one:

   “No thanks, I’m pretty clean these days.”  As if there had been a time when I wasn’t “clean”; as if there had once been a Ryan Sitzman that was a heroin-shooting, motorcycle-riding, hell-raising son of a bitch who kicked puppies and didn’t look both ways before crossing the street.

   “Well that’s good for you,” she said.  I could see through her large glasses that her eyes had begun to water.  “I do drugs,” she continued, “but I’m an OK person.  Spent seven years in jail, but that’s only ‘cause of a vendetta.  They were always trying to catch me.”

   “Who?”

   “Boulder County Sheriff. They couldn’t get me for years and years, but finally they did. Now I know what torture is.”

   “What did they get you on?” I asked surprised. “And you got tortured?”

   “Well, they caught me with about 100 pounds of weed and all sorts of other drugs.”

   “Shit,” I replied. “But they tortured you?”

   “1000 women without a cigarette—that’s fucking torture.”  I smiled a bit and chuckled at her comment.  She continued on, saying, “But now I’m just getting fucking old. I couldn’t hardly walk a year ago, ‘cause they replaced my hip. But now I’m almost off the morphine—no, I guess I am off the morphine—and I can fucking walk all over the place!”

   “A hip replacement sounds mighty painful…” I began, unsure what to say.

   “Wanna see the scar? I don’t care--I’m fucking proud of it,” Celeste said, standing up.  And before I could tell her no thanks, I’d rather not see your scar, she unbuttoned her pants and pulled them halfway down her thigh.  She ran her hand along an unsightly purple scar around 8 inches long.

   “Uh, wow!” I said, hoping those would be the magic words that would get her to put her pants back on.  Apparently the words worked, because she pulled them back up and re-buttoned them.  Without sitting back down, she must have suddenly decided that it was time to go back home, which she then formally announced aloud.  She headed to the door and shook my hand and told me again—although this time it was more of an order—that I should go to Florida and bring that girl’s ass back here.  With that, she left.

   For the next two hours, I struggled in vain to fit the air conditioner into my window.  Every technique that I used to try to make it fit failed, and water from somewhere inside the unit spilled and dirtied my apartment floor.  I contemplated strategies, tried them, watched them fail, and I cursed.  I hurt my back trying to lift the behemoth onto the window ledge.  I winced as I got close to the machine and sensed the stale cigarette smell that seemed to radiate in all directions.  And finally, I admitted that machine had overpowered man, and I laid the air conditioner on the floor of my balcony: a smelly, electronic, beached whale of an appliance. 

   I went back inside and turned on my computer.  A chagrined smile came to my face as I thought of Celeste and Big Mike, and I imagined them passed out in bed after having already spent my money on some sort of narcotic.  I placed an ad in the classified section of the local paper for a used air conditioner, at the bargain price of only 100 dollars.